My mind is numb and I still wonder..........why?
Monday, May 21, 2012
I know there's a certain number of people that think we develop a tough shell that protects us when we lose a battle to save one of our animals. Instead of it getting easier, it just hits me harder when I lose one, because I keep thinking there's one more thing I could have done or maybe I could have done this instead of that. I woke up this morning to a yearling ewe that had given birth, a very unplanned pregnancy, as she was never in with a ram. I'm going to assume they bred through the fence, or that the ram jumped over a 48" panel and then jumped back in...(unlikely). We found this little ewe laying in the lot, with the mom by her, she was licked off, but cold and very near death. I got out the towels and heating pad, finally she was warm. I ran to the shed and milked the mom and got some colostrum, got about 11 ml of that down her and some Nutri Drench and she was doing pretty good........then she started to have a seizure. I picked her up and made a flying trip to the vet, 107 temp and low blood sugar. We got her temp down and her glucose levels up, and then we wait. I sat with her all morning into the afternoon, and at 2:03 pm she finally couldn't fight any more. I only knew this little girl for 7 1/2 hrs, but I am devastated. So much for the notion that you get used to this sort of thing...........the heart still breaks, and I'm a giant baby that needs to toughen up.